Glorious Sadness

Sometimes writing could feel soooooooo damn relieving.

And that’s what I’m doing now.

Here in my desk.

While my eyes are too dry to cry.

My heart is somewhere else.

And my soul has been lost for I don’t know, forever..?

I need a break. I really need a break.

Cos it’s really getting hard at the end of the day.

I need distraction, beautiful release, emptiness.

Let me fly.

Let me be empty.

Just let me.

Hopefully, I’ll find some peace tonight.

This glorious sadness is driving me insane.

Well, at least, it does bring me to my knees.

r e a l i z e

Take time to realize that your warmth is crashing down.
Take time to realize that I am on your side.
Didn't I, didn't I tell you?
But I can't spell it out for you.
No, it's never gonna be that simple.
No, I can't spell it out for you. 

If you just realize what I just realized,
Than we'd be perfect for each other,
And we'll never find another.
Just realize what I just realized,
We'd never have to wonder,
If we missed out on each other now.

Note :

If there’s anything I can do to make it up to you, I will.

If there’s anything you want to say, let me hear it.

If there’s anything I need to know, tell me.

If there’s anything I can do to make you stay here,
I’m on my way.

If I could be the one for you, name it, name what you need,
I’ll be everything you need. 

If you need me to change,
I’ll try my best. 
I’ll fight for it.
For you.

I used to love you..and I could not stop in getting use to it.

I miss Him

I miss him.

I really miss the way he used to call me..

“Adis”

I really miss how he used to wake up in the middle of the night just to cover me up with my blanket.

I really miss how he used to laugh at my not-so-funny jokes.

I really miss how he used to offering me to cook the omelet every morning for me.

I really miss the way he yell at me when I wasn’t downstair to accompany him.

I really miss his enthusiasm in watching me dancing NIDJI way.

I really miss him.

I really miss how he used to pleased my mom after she finished her cooks.

I miss the way he stares at my mom just to let her know he loves her so.

Pa, kangen..